I was completely unable to adjust to living a normal life and the neighbourhood was rife with teenagers, which put me on edge. I had started to feel old. I started to feel like I couldn’t connect with anyone. Riding the subway into the city, I would often find myself nervous and paranoid, especially when school let out. It was pretty comical. One day while riding the train, the subway car filled with tons of school kids, I started to have a straight up panic attack. To deal with this I hid under my notebook and just started to write lyrics…